i really think in terms of that, i don't know, maybe it is because i grew up in northern california, think think where does the energy live in a person? and for me rachel singer has survivor skills, her whole family has been killed, why does she deserve to be alive? and so for her i thought a lot about scar tissue, that she is just this walking scar tissue and that helped me a lot. >> rose: and there is a scene, though, where he is in a chair. >> uh-huh. >> rose: i mean that has to be a tough scene for you to film. >> oh, yes. >> rose: where is your head? >> well, during all of those scenes, the doctors becomes a fertility doctor so she has to be a patient and shot all of that stuff for a week in chronological order and even though you know, we are acting he is not performing an examination on me, it is still really embarrassing and humiliating and you put yourself there. >> rose: so you have to identify with the humiliation. >> exactly, so much so that when we finally filmed the attack when rachel comes, you know, he is finally able to attack him, i think i was a little too excited